Dilemma..!!

Dilemma

God has created your mirror image… how can it be when you come across with such a parallel soul …

Whom you want to retain…Whom you want to hold.. ...

But here..it is only a mirror image…which can never be real… 

or perhaves,we are afraid of the consequences of reality…

And hence, every time when we talk about practicality… ..

...still the heart with the heart has many dreams..many desires…many thoughts..many conversations.. 

Some rational…Some irrational …

But all restrict between the heart, mind and soul… 

Within you..they only sprout and never presume to come out.. 

then gradually and then forcefully the feelings are made to sublime..

Since you know it is a mirror image…which can only be seen 

..and far beyond to touch and feel… 

But you spend day after day…repeating the words which you can never dare to say.. 

Still wishing a hope against the hope..that everything that are wished, could come true… 

Because We know, there can never ever be another You…

Hating The Concept Of Arrange Marriage

I hate this concept of “Arrange Marriage”… I find it ridiculous, irritating…frustrating and less appreciating…The journey to search the soul-mate through this system is just logic less and hilarious…. L  But, what to do…according to the Indian Standards I am at par or beyond the marriageable age, so now it is the peak time…and I am totally helpless since I am not blessed with some one`s attention or love L. Hence, I don`t have any other way out…no escape and even if I try …I will be trapped by the emotional web of my family members..!!! L Unlucky Girl…!!!Another reason which makes me to hate this concept is- it will make you an option…and especially it sucks when the people are amongst those who don`t deserves you.

Then comes.. the “Query Phase”…all meaningless, obtuse…insane wringing which will perplexed you and makes you out of mind and have a traumatizing after effects…
The first requirement  of these vacuous  imbecilic …is the look…first thing that one will noticed in matrimony sites or advertisement is” Looks of a Girl- should be beautiful” and I proudly accept that I am not amongst those beautiful girls with fair complexion, red lips, rosy cheeks , tall , super model type attitude but yes..I am symmetrical and for that I need not any certification no proof. I may be substandard regarding the beauty criteria but I am happy with all the appreciation that I get for my smile. I proudly announce that I AM NOT BEAUTIFUL….and for that I ROCK…

Then it comes about the family. What class do you belong??.And I would say “SIMPLE CLASS with FAMILY MEMBERS who ARE NORMAL HUMAN ENTITIES”. At least we do not show what we are not…we are literate and we are beings who are connected with each other straight from heart. Usually, in this journey one will come across these pretentious and abnormal creatures who will talk about their so called family (fallacious)-standards but lack the ‘love and respect’ that a happy family must possess.

And next, they will question about my daddy, since I am a posthumous child. It’s not my fault but my fate…My daddy is no more but he is still existing in my mummy`s love…he is existing within me, I am carrying his genes and showing the similar traits. If he would be with us, we could lead a different life..But it’s all fate and we need to move on accordingly. But, I know, wherever in this universe my daddy exists, he is definitely proud of me and so do I.
the next mark ..Mom..yes my mummy is not attuned with her health. She may be weak but, she is a lady with strong will power.  A lady who scarified her whole life for healthy upbringing of her child. A beautiful lady, a wonderful person  whom one must place next to God.

Further, these creatures are not satisfied and landed with more and more intellectual question-about the studies. Life is advancing, world is advancing, Education is advancing. So, if the IIT is providing an authentic HR degree…what`s the big and unusual deal in that.. and why people are so concern with the name of the degree…What can I do, if the degree is called M.Tech in HR. In this case I have only one thing to say-Please contact…Dept of HSS, IIT-Kgp. You will get the clarification.

I am really fed up with all these patterned questions which these brain-dead, ostentatious bong guys n their families usually try to figure out….these prototypes should be  grouped together and put under species called TB-Species(Typical Bongs)…and I proudly make the declaration that I would prefer to be single than to get committed with these awful abnormals..and these creatures do not deserve the girls like us who are not  only wonderful souls ..But also possess an eternal inner beauty which enhance with aging…!!!

 PS: People who are not in love..please go and get someone in your life...!!! All these steps in  arrange marriage are really very annoying...

My Soul Mate

My Soul Mate

The celebrating presence-his existence
“My man of substance”
A true companion..A true friend
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The smile-which makes me alive
The warmth of arm-the naughty charm
The roses and the proposal
The rain and the closer
The divine touch-The soulful merge
The care….The affection
Its all his attention
Deep emotions…deepest passion
My desire-the burning fire….

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But, here I am..unrecognized and unknown
In the kingdom of Eros..
Someone (God) played it so unfair….
making me lonely… explicitly unpaired
Empty and vacant
Always feeling his absence
All devoid- nothing to rejoice…

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It’s already so late…
then, why does the heart wait..??
I don’t show-but I know
I am aging-still hoping
Someday….something unexpecting
The true love`s kiss-that I miss
From dusk to dawn
years and years…..so long

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My man….The man…Only man..
Comes out from the dreamland
and..holds my hand
Be it a serendipity- a splendid beauty
Be it a miracle, be it a magic
Be it a fragrance…be it a frolic
One who makes life worth living
not merely just surviving
The madness.. the innocence-creates a spark
that will enlighten the dark…
to celebrate his presence….his existence
Till date..I wait..My Soul mate…
…..Forever-let takes me inside
…..Forever-let I stay beside…

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...The Voice is My Self...

I led a dual life...I am not the physical being...It`s something inside...I do not see myself as other have seen...I do not feel myself as the way other have felt..I am here..I am there..I am everywhere..but unawaring of the fact who am I..??

Standing in front of mirror and asking the question repeatedly.."Who are you.." and there comes a voice deep inside..I am inside..obliged to remain in your cellular matter..I am eternal..I am undefined...I am shapeless...I am force..I am energy...You can find me in sunshine..You can find me in moonlight..You can find me in raindrops...You can find me in blossom…You can find me in season..but “who are you..” I ask again..the voice smile and say..”Don not ask question but follow me..”

And as the voice is followed by me…….shown me the way which is endless and sempiternal and it shows me the way..finally it is the top of the cliff and the breeze touch my face…..soft and sweet..and I talk to the voice again..and find that the voice is my self …the self is my inner consciousness….and I get the answer..!!!

Pseudo-forms

"Pseudo-forms"

Life is so complicated..Its 3:45 A.M in the morning and instead of sleeping I am writing the blog...!!!

I am in a very strange situation...I don`t understand what to do...I am really feeling bad.
Today, rather tonight, I have lost something that I really care for(once upon a time..).
Though,it may exist in its "pseudo-form" but, it was there. It made me feel happy.
I always know the reality but still, sometimes i hoped against the hope.That is what, undesirable..!!!
But, Life.. takes an unique U-turn.
Suddenly, I have started hating that "pseudo-form".A "pinching" feeling has emerged.
The "Feel Good" factor is now vanish.It sublimes in a moment.
And, I am feeling bad for it.

May be, it is required.God has planned it for me because, "Every action has an equal and opposite reaction."
I was hoping something undesirable and hence I feel animus.

Mind you..people..Netwon`s Third Law  really exists in life..even without the scientific justification.
So, whatever you do...do it carefully..thinking about the long term consequences.

And also,don`t allow the "pseudo-forms" to exist in your life.At a time, it may make you "Feel Good"..!! yeh..." but, all these "pseudo form" prototypes are of no use..just waste of your "Energy and Time".
So...people hold on..and the stay tune to reality.